Dream In Illusion: May 2011

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

Here comes the Sun
No more lies in the dark
No more spirits of the past
Here comes the waves
As I look out to the sea
Fear has drowned in the deep
I want to go to a place
A place where I cannot hear the Devil speak
Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
I am finally free
Free to connect the Sun to my heart
I found the key to paradise
You can come with me
To Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

Here comes the rain
Raindrops cover us head to toe
No hope in the sky to be found
Here comes the kiss
Everything is full of color now
There is a destiny to be found
I'm gonna run to the sea
The demons can't catch me now
Because the ocean holds my soul
Angels can be found deep in the blue

Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
I am finally free
Free to connect the Sun to my heart
I found the key to paradise
You can come with me
To Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

Voices in the water
They have a story to tell
But you should know mine by now
I want to run along the beach
And be left with the sand in my shoes
I don't want to ever leave
Because the ocean holds my heart

Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
I am finally free
Free to connect the Sun to my heart
I found the key to paradise
You can come with me
To Where The Ocean Holds My Soul
Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

City Lights

I'm so tired of everything in my life
I can't seem to get myself out of this rust
Can't seem to get my train back on the track
I'm tired of everyday life
I just wanna run away with the wind
Maybe to a city
Where the cars are speeding
On the horizon
I wish it were that easy

There's something about the City Lights
That make me smile
There's something about the long, lonely nights
That make me wanna run for miles
One day I will run for my life
Where the City Lights
Are calling my name

I can't stop being sentimental
If only my world wasn't dried up and lifeless
Maybe if I could find a girl
That knew what love is
That saw the world the same as I do
As of now I dream for the tall buildings
With an ocean view
On a rainy day
Yeah, that's more like me

There's something about the City Lights
That make me smile
There's something about the long, lonely nights
That make me wanna run for miles
One day I will run for my life
Where the City Lights
Are calling my name

I'm tired of the country
It's so boring and frail
And the people get really mean
I am still stuck here
But one day I'll be out of here
And I will not be back here again
I'm as gone as the time that goes by

There's something about the City Lights
That make me smile
There's something about the long, lonely nights
That make me wanna run for miles
One day I will run for my life
Where the City Lights
Are calling my name

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Story of Confusion

I've wasted all of my days
Chasing something I couldn't catch
No matter how hard I try
I end up being a crack in the pavement
After all of these years I have learned
Love will never take away real life
So if I end up alone
At least I won't be blind
No matter how hard I resist
I always keep coming back to you
But will this time be different?
Who would've thought
That even in my darkest years
Heaven is always out of reach
Even though I wait for her, day after day
I eventually know...
She will never come

Here's another story to tell
The Story of Confusion
Chapter one is denial
I can't believe that this is life
As I grow older each year
Excitement is hard to come upon
But at the end of the day
I always hope that you'll come to realize
That I'm the one for you
Where are the thieves that stole my hope?
I only have a little bit left
But I have enough to wait for you
Even if it takes a thousand years
Well, who would've thought
That even in my darkest years
Heaven is always out of reach
Even though I wait for her, day after day
I eventually know...
She will never come

The final chapter in this novel is acceptance
Accept the fact that she's gone for good
I haven't got that far yet
My love will never fade away
I'm in love and I always will be
Will she ever be my kingdom come?
My twisted mind runs back and forth
So as you read this Story Of Confusion
I hope somebody will convince me
She will never come

Meet Me In The Cave

I remember the day I first saw your face
Neon colors fill the open air
The sun and moon appeared in the same time
How unlikely could this be?
My eyes have now filled with color
Can you make a rainbow when we touch?
If only you could...

Come in from the ocean
Fill my heart with hope
Forget the evil kings
Then Meet Me In The Cave
When we connect the stars
You'll shine for the world to see
So if you want some silence
Just Meet Me In The Cave

The sun has radiated my soul
Since I first saw you
We haven't even met
But I believe in love at first sight
For once in my life

Come in from the ocean
Fill my heart with hope
Forget the evil kings
Then Meet Me In The Cave
When we connect the stars
You'll shine for the world to see
So if you want some silence
Just Meet Me In The Cave

If we should ever speak
Which I hope we will
Maybe we can sail a ship to paradise
Maybe this love can grow strong
Maybe we will touch the moon tonight
If you just....

Come in from the ocean
Fill my heart with hope
Forget the evil kings
Then Meet Me In The Cave
When we connect the stars
You'll shine for the world to see
So if you want some silence
Just Meet Me In The Cave

The Unreachable

I have an imagination
It comes alive at night
As I dream about the life
I wish I could have
I meet a perfect girl
I hope she will one day be real
Meanwhile, I struggle and fight my way out of this sorrow
Hoping to one day be happy
With my other half
So that nothing else will matter

The face in my dreams
Does it fill the void?
Will she one day be real?
The music in my soul
Does it fill the void?
Do the words heal the pain?

What the hell is real?
And why is it so hard to find?
No matter how many times I look
I end up feeling so alone
The 5th degree loneliness
Burns me up alive
Haunts me until I run away
And close my eyes
And I'll have that dream again
The one where I am happy

The face in my dreams
Does it fill the void?
Will she one day be real?
The music in my soul
Does it fill the void?
Do the words heal the pain?

Is home reality?
Is true love real?
Is it what it seems?
No beautiful stranger to hold my hand
She's only in my dreams
Is isolation real?
Or is loneliness only an illusion?
No good evidence
No one can seem to answer these questions

The face in my dreams
Does it fill the void?
Will she one day be real?
The music in my soul
Does it fill the void?
Do the words heal the pain?
Where's my fantasy?

But in the end
It's just a dream
And it's not real
This is Reality

Surrendering

Have you looked in the mirror today?
Can you see the reflection of broken promises?
Have you no shame? You lied to me all this time
So now the end is coming soon
We don't fight it cause it's nothing we can do
We closed the door on this love
I was wrong for breaking you
It was wrong for me to lie to you
If I could change it I would

Lets just back down
Put down our weapons
Give up the war
Put up our arms and Surrender
Just forget the fire of the day
I Surrender

If you could look realness in the face,
Could we really see eye to eye?
Have you no shame? All your lies are catching up with you
We don't have much time before we fade away
I shouldn't have tried to change you soul
I never should have went behind your back
And said those little stories
It's too bad the end is near
We could have had everything

Lets just back down
Put down our weapons
Give up the war
Put up our arms and Surrender
Just forget the fire of the day
It burns to the sky
I Surrender

I feel this shame inside of me
I know I hurt you
But you hurt me too
In the end it's over now
It'd time for us to leave
This haunted memory

I wish we could just back down
Put down our weapons
Give up the war
Put up our arms and Surrender
Forget the fire of the day
It burns to the sky
I hope we can work it out someday
Just not today...

Moonlight

Moonlight, Moonlight
Candles in the room
Under the roof that covers me and you
Roses on the floor
You follow them in the room
And then we dance to a piano song

Moonlight, Moonlight
We lay out under the stars
While we just sit and talk about life
I saw the signs
They let me back to you
And who'd of thought it would be you and me

Moonlight, Moonlight
It shines upon your dress
It makes the red sparkle to your eyes
Brown eyes, Brown eyes
They tell a little story
Lets have no regrets after tonight

Sunlight, Sunlight
The night is over now
But it sure was great while it lasts
Lets face the day
And I will see you again soon

Doves

She had her dreams all in tact
Till somebody stepped on her ass
They said she wasn't good enough
They said she was a worthless fool
She went home to cut the pain
Blood and tears came dripping down
Nobody knew the pain she felt
She had it all, she could have stayed
She told herself nobody cared
She takes the gun, she's had enough
She left a note: "No more tears, I'm done for good"

Hear the cries from the mourn
Hard to believe that she's gone for good
This is life is over say goodbye
You won't see me ever again
That's all she said as she passed
14 years cut way too short
So as we close our eyes and count to ten
Myra's Doves fly to the sky

He was an outcast in their eyes
They didn't know how bad he cried
They broke him down to the point
Till he didn't care to see
The dawn of a new day
There were shadows in his life
He was alone and nobody cared
Locked himself in his room
Told everybody he was fine
But it wasn't long until the end
He takes belt, he's had enough
And he hopes it doesn't hurt too bad

Hear the cries from the mourn
Hard to believe that he's now gone
This life is over say goodbye
You won't see me ever again
That's all he said as he passed
15 years cut way too short
So as we close our eyes and count to ten
Kyle's Doves fly to the sky

Breaking dawn, she sees the lights
She knows it's gonna be another troubled day
Friends turn their backs on this girl
She's all alone with no one to love
There's her mother passed out on the floor
No one can see her tears
The fake smile makes her look strong
But eventually she's broken and frail
She sneaks the pills from the box
Half a dozen, it's over now
She leaves a note: "You'll be sorry when I'm dead"

Hear the cries from the mourn
Hard to believe she's gone for good
This life is over say goodbye
You won't see me ever again
That's all she said as she passed
16 years is way too short
So as we close our eyes, hold in the tears
Vanessa's Doves fly to the sky

In the end these broken souls
Couldn't see the light in the world
Hear the bells from the church
We should never have to mourn
In the dark days, just smile
You will see the sun once again
A thousand Doves are flying in the sky

Conquer You

They told me I was nothing
But I'll prove myself one day
They told me I was weird
But I'll embrace it and shove it in your face
They made me feel weak
Like a balloon that has no air
Now, you can say what you want
But I don't really care
Now you can call me names
But you're just wasting your time
Because you will never
They will never bother me again

Attack me guns and knives
That's okay cause I'll fight back
And I will someday Conquer You
If you think you can beat me down
And steal my pride
You have another thing coming
Cause I will Conquer You

You told me I was fat
Well look at me now, I'm slim and grown
You told me I'm a freak
But that's okay, it's just a little word
They broke me down
Until I was vulnerable
Like standing naked in the middle of the street
Now you can say what you want
But I honestly don't care
And you will never
They will never bother me again

Attack me with guns and knives
That's okay cause I'll fight back
And I will someday Conquer You
If you think you can beat me down
And steal my pride
You can't take that away from me
Cause I will Conquer You

You pulled me into a dark hole
I thought i could never get out
Well now I'm stronger than my former self
You will never melt me down again
Now you can say what you want
But I really don't give a shit
And you will never make me frown again

Attack me with guns and knives
That's okay cause I'll fight back
And I will someday Conquer You
If you think you can beat me down
And steal my pride
You will never take that away from me
Cause I will Conquer You

Childhood Memories

Had a bunch of fights with my best friends
Called each other names and broke each others heart
As we get older, the easier it is to start a war
The innocence and joy...
Where did it go?
It's dead and gone
It ran away and we can't catch it now
It's too late, All we have are the memories

From my Childhood
The loving times I had
What happened to my Childhood?
It slipped away from beneath the cracks
What I'd give to go back
What I'd give to go back and live in it
At least one more day
But we all have to grow up

There are people that I met
But I never hear from them anymore
And how I miss the friends I had
To the family that's now laying in a cemetery
I wish I could be naive again
Naive, unaffected by the war and violence
Now I am aware
And I don't like it
Reality is too real for me
So now I will close my eyes
Close my eyes and remember happier days

From my Childhood
The loving times I had
What happened to my Childhood?
It slipped away from beneath the cracks
What I'd give to go back
What I'd give to go back and live in it
At least one more day
But we all have to grow up

I miss the innocence
I miss the laughing in the rain
I miss my kind-heart naivete
I miss the joy of being young
Not a care in the world
Just smiles and echos of nature
But I will always fight
I will always be strong
I will always rise against
And as I grow old
And about to slip away
I will look back and remember those days

From my Childhood
The loving times I had
What happened to my Childhood?
It slipped away from beneath the cracks
What I'd give to go back
What I'd give to go back and live in it
At least one more day
But we all have to grow up

My Sunset

If you could see the broken cracks
Within a smile
Then you would be able to look
Realness in the face
I hear a desperate voice
Within a haunted melody
I never really wanted anything out of life
Then you came and showed me another way
Now I see that I can't
Sit up in this Grey, hollow, blankness
As I could be walking into
A deep blue ocean
I'll see the colors in a perfect pattern

I will always look into the sky
And feel hope
I still remember all the times that I cried
Like yesterday
After everything in my life I've been through
After a depressing day
The sky is getting darker on me
But now I can see a sunset
My Sunset

Lost in a daze, The porch light on
Getting darker by the minute
Trees as green, Green as always
The blueness has taken over
The cars fly by, Dogs barking at the fading sky
Feeling kind of lonely
Glad, but sad I let you go
Who else is gonna explain
The meaning of life?
But I have found out on my own

I will always look into the sky
And feel hope
I still remember all the times that I cried
Like yesterday
After everything in my life I've been through
After a depressing day
The sky is getting darker on me
But now I can see a sunset
My Sunset

As the sunshine goes away from the day
I just wanna feel alright again
There is hope in the sky
I just hope I can feel it someday

I will always look into the sky
And feel hope
I still remember all the times that I cried
Like yesterday
After everything in my life I've been through
After a depressing day
The sky is getting darker on me
But now I can see a sunset
My Sunset

If you could see the broken cracks
Within a smile
Then you would be able to look
Realness in the face
I never really wanted anything out of life
Then you came and showed me another way
I have walked into
A deep blue ocean
I have seen the colors in my soul

I will always look into the sky
And feel hope
I still remember all the times that I cried
Like yesterday
After everything in my life I've been through
After a depressing day
The sky is getting darker on me
But now I can see a sunset
My Sunset

Saturday, May 14, 2011

There's Rainfall Today

There's Rainfall Today
Shadows in the sky
The light that flashes
I know it's you
Your angels crying on the world
From your golden kingdom
I see that you're sad

You protect us
So we're with you
Until the end of time
We are with you

There's fire today
Burning the innocence and joy
There are melting hearts
I know that you're there
Can you help us?
Wash the pain away
From the tragic kingdom
You see we are broken

You protect us
You're with me
And I'm with you
Until the end of time
I'm with you

It's a cold day today
The chilling people
With ice for hearts
Our minds are frozen
Have they forgotten about you?
There's too many lies in this world
You're not one of them
You won't forget us

You protect us
So we'll protect you
You're with us
Until the end of time
You're the light within the dark

There's Rainfall Today
I look up in the sky
Cause I know it's you

Alive

Sometimes there are days where I feel drowned
So I lay up in my dark room
I can't feel the magic within me
That is why I live in an empty hole
Sometimes I feel so paper thin
But sometimes we have to run
Run off...

Out into the light
The wind in my face
Make myself Alive
I'm just a comet
Shooting across the sky
Nothing can stop me
I feel Alive

There are days I just stay hidden
But you can't see the world through a wall
Break it down and let them see your smile
No need to be afraid of whats to come
I know love let me down the first time
But it will come back again someday
Cause I know who I am
I'll just run out...

Into the light
The wind in my face
Freedom feels so good
It makes me feel Alive
I'm just a comet
Shooting across the sky
Nothing can stop me
I feel Alive

Just when life gets colder
I look up to the sky
It's a wonderful life
If you choose it to be
I hear my melody
My happy melody
This time it's gonna last

I run out into the light
The wind in my face
Freedom feels so good
It makes me feel Alive
I'm just a comet
Shooting across the sky
Nothing can stop me
I feel Alive

Going North

I let this girl run away
This time I'm not gonna chase her again
I said goodbye to this hollow shell
She didn't give me what I really needed
And that's truth and love
Whatever happened to combining the two?
What happened to the dreams I dreamed of you?
But everything always happens for a reason

So now I'm Going North
No more apologies to your best friend
No more dreaming of you wearing white
I think it's too late for that
But remember who really loved you
That man was me
Baby it was me

So now I burned your face from my mind
Your silence was too much
I had to move on
But I'll still remember you
You were my first love
My first real heartbreak
But please carry on
I do not and will never hate you
I just could not wait for you forever
So that's the end of this tragic story

So now I'm Going North
No more apologies from a letter
I already cleared the air
No more dreaming of you wearing white
I think it's too late for that
I think you run from love
So I'll just let you do that
But just remember who really loved you
That man was me
Baby it was me

My heart tells me to run after you and catch you
But my head knows better than that
I worked so hard for nothing
So that's the end of this concrete love
That never was...

Heartbroken In Hell

How did it come to this?
I'm Heartbroken In Hell
What has happened here?
I'm underneath the light
I'm trying to climb back up
That's what happens, when you're Heartbroken In Hell
Here comes the darkness again
The sun has left me alone
I'm burned in this pain again
The rain won't wash it out
When the stars come at night
I look up at the sky
Wondering who I am
And that's what happens
When you're Heartbroken In Hell

That's what happens when You're Heartbroken In Hell
I'm sitting here, wanting to run
To find my former self

Like everyone has always said
You can't learn without pain
But is there a certain point
Where there's too much pain
And you don't even listen?
Can we go back to the days
When things didn't even matter?
Or can I just go back to bed
Hoping it will all be a dream
What the hell has happened here?
I used to be happier than this
But she broke me in half
And left me with all the cracks
So that's what happens
When you're Heartbroken In Hell

That's what happens when You're Heartbroken In Hell
I'm sitting here, wanting to run
To find my former self
Here comes the darkness again
The sun has left me alone
I'm burned in this pain again
The rain won't wash it out
When the stars come at night
I look up at the sky
Wondering who I am
That's what happens, when you're Heartbroken In Hell

There's a chain around my heart
I won't unlock it now
I threw away the key
You can't get to it now
And that's what happens
When you're left Heartbroken In Hell

Leave Your Land

You have no idea how bad my heart crashed
When I found out you didn't feel the same
I had dreams of kissing you in the rain
But I guess that will ever happen
I don't think I'll ever see that face of an angel
The same way I used to
I've always held on to my child-like dreams
Like a stupid boy
I didn't know
Why couldn't I see

This isn't a movie
I'm not your everything
We don't live in a castle made of stone
You are not a queen
You are just a girl
This is the real world and people will let you down
So I guess it's time I Leave Your Land
Before I change my mind

Maybe I tried too hard
I had this happy ending planned out
Now I know it doesn't work like that
Because I didn't get my golden fantasy
I could have been your hero
But you threw me down
This wasn't how it was supposed to be
And now I know

This isn't a movie
I'm not your everything
We don't live in a castle made of stone
You are not a queen
You are just a girl
This is the real world and people will let you down
So I guess it's time I Leave Your Land
Before I change my mind

And now thanks to you
I am afraid to fall again
But I know in time
Your face will fade away
So now know that

We're not a movie
We can never be
We will never live in a castle made of stone
You are just a girl, not a Queen
This is the real world and people will let you down
So now it's time to Leave Your Land
And I'm not coming back

Friday, May 13, 2011

Stomping Hearts

I think I was living in denial
While you kept that secret to yourself
The kind of secret that you knew
Would break my heart if I found out
You are too nice to tell the truth anyway
But I found out and it was cruel
So you can tell everyone that I'm creepy and obsessive
I already apologized and moved on

But whether you believe me or not
It doesn't matter what you think
The next time you go Stomping Hearts
The least you could do is look me in the eyes
So next time you've got a problem
Just say it to my face

Now that I'm done dreaming of youI can see the flaws within you
You're depressing and dishonest
And you barely even crack a smile
And you have no personality
You don't deserve me anyway
I wasted a year of dreams on you
I know I gave you a bad impression
But I apologized and moved on

But whether you believe me or not
It doesn't matter what you think
The next time you go Stomping Hearts
The least you could do is look me in the eyes
So next time you've got a problem
Just say it to my face

Kissing In The Rain

If love was like it was in the movies
It would be paradise wouldn't it?
Now it is raining like an April shower
I wish we would meet in the middle
What would it be like?
I would say....

"I hope you like Kissing In The Rain"
She comes on over and we walk outside
We look each other in the eyes
Under the rainy sky
We put the umbrella down And then we kiss
Our hair and clothes get soaking wet
But we don't care, It's a beautiful moment
Lets make the moment last

Whenever it rains, I look out the window
And I wonder if your doing the same
Are you thinking of me?
If this dream could be real
I would hope to embrace you
Under the roaring thunder
Lights are flashing in the sky
What would this fantasy be like?
I would say to her...

"I hope you like Kissing In The Rain"
She comes on over and we walk outside
We look each other in the eyes
Under the rainy sky
We put the umbrella down
And then we kiss
Our hair and clothes get soaking wet
But we don't care, It's a beautiful moment
Lets make this moment last

So we lay under a tree
Keeping ourselves dry and warm
And I don't care if I catch a cold
Being with you is worth it
And I don't care if the storm never ends
And the rainbow never comes
As long as I'm with this girl
I'll kiss her in the rain
What if this was real?

Beautiful Stranger

I was tense, I was soar
As I lay down and closed my eyes
I started to dream a beautiful dream
About a girl that is a diamond
She's just a stranger, A beautiful stranger
I know her but I don't
But in that dream we met on the coastal shore
And I said...

"Come on and take my hand
It's time to go on a journey
It will be alright, just hand on to me
Your sweet embrace is all I need"

So as we walked along the beautiful cove
The silence was too much
So finally I took her hand
And told her I'm in love with a beautiful stranger
And though we're both no stranger to heartbreak
And we both kept a shield up
We knew we were right
So I said 3 beautiful words
Se grabbed my arm and she said...

"Kiss me while you can
You don't need to be afraid
We have the world and I have you
It's all I ever needed"

Please don't leave me
Our hearts fit perfectly
We can be like a King and Queen
And hope it will never end
We can be two lovers
Under a winter twilight
Build our love on a secret bridge
We can wrap each other in a sweet embrace
We can create a pattern that never ends
Just you and me
Like two lovers under a winter twilight

"So just take my hand" I said
"We have everything and I have all that I need"
And she grabbed me and we kissed in a sweet embrace

So when I opened my eyes it was a dream
A beautiful dream and when I saw
That beautiful stranger again
I wondered if she saw me

Dream In Illusion

I used to dream to big
And look up in the clouds
I used to be a naive fellow
Who spread himself too thin
There has always been that little boy inside
Who believed people are good just because they are
I was sadly mistaken

I used to Dream In Illusion
I was so blind, I needed to open my eyes
And see the world for what it is
it's a dark, cold, and lonely place
So baby take my hand
And we'll walk this empty road alone
to face everything we runaway from

I was a happy boy at one time
So full of hope, the skies limitless
Then I grew up and darkness fell down
Made more enemies than friends
I was so ashamed
I found myself in an endless nightmare
I begged someone to wake me up
Is this real? or is it a dream?
I couldn't deal anymore

I used to Dream In Illusion
I was so blind, I needed to open my eyes

And see the world for what it is
it's a dark, cold, and lonely place
So baby take my hand
And we'll walk this empty road alone
to face everything we runaway from

Close your eyes and picture us as runaways
Free of our inhibitions, Free of the darkness
Lets run into the light for a brighter future
We'll connect to the sky
We're finally free
But then we open our eyes
And we realize
It was only an Illusion

So now that I'm grown
My illusions have died
I am no longer naive
I've opened my eyes
This world is a cold and evil place
So if your ready just take my hand
And we'll walk this empty road alone
To face everything we once ran away from
When we Dreamed In Illusion

Undecided

No plans
I can't seem to find my path
But no fears
I have enough time to make up my mind
No love
I keep myself guarded enough to avoid the pain
But when the day comes
I'll be ready to say

I'm coming up out from underwater
Where I kept silent
I'm ready to make these changes
No more hiding, no more pain
But as of now
My life is Undecided

This curtain,
Has appeared to have closed on me
No worries
I'm way to shy to do anything
I can't let go of what people say
My life is a growing epidemic with no cure
But one day I'll be ready to say

I'm coming up out from underwater
Where I kept silent
I'm ready to make these changes
No more hiding, no more pain
But as of now
My life is Undecided

Fill in the neon lights
Make my heart full of color
To light up my soul
Until I decide to stand up and take control

I'm coming up out from underwater
Where I kept silent
I'm ready to make these changes
No more hiding, no more pain
But as of now
My life is Undecided

Dream In Illusion

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Where The Ocean Holds My Soul

City Lights

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Story of Confusion

Meet Me In The Cave

The Unreachable

Shooting Star (Dream In Illusion Part II)

Surrendering

Moonlight

Doves

Conquer You

Childhood Memories

My Sunset

Saturday, May 14, 2011

There's Rainfall Today

Alive

Going North

Heartbroken In Hell

Leave Your Land

Friday, May 13, 2011

Stomping Hearts

Kissing In The Rain

Beautiful Stranger

Dream In Illusion

Heart Full of Stars

Undecided